yound, wild & free.
BEyou. FINDyou. beHAPPYwiththat.
I am the happiest that I have been in a long time with most things in my life.
Things that I am not so happy with:
I’ll take the good with the bad at this point though.
"Yup, and it isn’t what it could have been."
These words are honestly like knives to me right now. They symbolize my actions and how they have effected something/someone that could have been the best part of my life.
Have you ever been in a situation, but you don’t know what lead you there or why you let it happen? - Welcome to my St.Patty’s day. I got carried away during the day with green beer and a ton of people around and ended up doing some things that I am not proud of at all. The worst thing I could have done to someone - I did, and have been paying a brutal price for it ever since.
I haven’t completely lost this person, but like he stated it can’t be what it could have been and somehow that hurts more than completely losing him would have. Right now it is all up to him and he is really angry and confused.. so at this point all I can do is pray that he sees something good in me - good enough to want to keep me in his life.
So here I am and here is where I’ll stay - praying.